威尔眨了眨眼。那只鸟依然在海浪下的某个地方倘游，蹼足踢着水，尖利的喙刺穿水体以搜寻它冷银色的猎物。它消失得如此彻底，以至于它可能从未存在过，威尔想着。他想知道有多少鸟潜入水下却没有再次浮上来，想知道他是否会成为其中之一。这感觉像是，自从他驶入大西洋，他便一直在下沉，越来越深地沉入到一个水下的梦境，而汉尼拔总是在那里，紧紧地抓着他。
“拜托。”他哄着他，在他能确定他一直观察着的这只鸟是否幸存之前，转身面对着汉尼拔。“你知道你有些地方想带我去看，有些你年轻时的街道和味道渴望与我分享。”
汉尼拔的笑容变大了些，嘴唇因愉悦而向后扯开，露出些许牙齿。“而我毫不怀疑，我会在适当的时候引领你走上所有这些道路。但现在，我想看看你为我们做出了何种抉择。毕竟，我已经花了这么长时间给你上好发条，正如你曾说的；现在允许我看着你如何行动才是最合适的。”
威尔哼了一声，将注意力转回到他的咖啡，和水面上，在那里可能有一只鸟在他移开视线的时候已经重新出现了。或者没有。“如果我决心想要留在佛罗里达怎么办？”他问道，转过身去，看到汉尼拔的表情滑落。他嘴角的笑容不太能继续保持住了，当他继续描述这个假设时。“穿着白色西装，搬到迈阿密，开始贩卖可卡因。”
汉尼拔的表情很是困惑。这看起来有点像是，他正试图确定到底该说些什么来作为回应。“我会非常有兴趣看到你穿着白色西装。”他终于总结道。“我想我们会成为令人钦佩的毒贩。”
“这不是个与毒贩联系在一起的典型形容词。”威尔指出。
“我们很难会成为典型的毒贩。”
“我们几乎算不上任何典型的什么。”威尔叹道。不是你典型的朋友，敌手，罪犯。杀手。爱人。“你可以用一大堆从拿破仑战争期间失事的船上抢救下来的、云雾朦胧的古董镜子来装饰我们的别墅，”他尖酸地继续说道，“我们还可以用它吸点毒。”
汉尼拔耸了耸肩。“如果这是你想要的话。”
“你会开始一段毒品非法交易的崭新职业生涯，就那样。”威尔笑道，有些难以置信。这就是他爱的，他想，汉尼拔那完全令他吃惊的能力。当然，这不总是为了他的利益，但当时也有过几次像这样的时刻——当威尔发觉自己对汉尼拔是多么的令人惊叹、多么的不合时宜、多么令人惊叹地不合时宜而感到震惊和愉悦。以及他是如何直白地拒绝表现得像一个合时宜的人。出于某种原因，这让威尔想起了几年前的某个清晨在汽车旅馆房间里吃的炒蛋。“心血来潮嘛。”
“只有你心血来潮。”汉尼拔答道。“虽然我希望你是在开玩笑。”
“你看不出来吗？”威尔得意地笑道。
“和你在一起，我永远没法确定，你的行为是如此不可预测。”汉尼拔叹了口气，威尔又要继续大笑起来，因为这些话是如此熟悉，因为它们如此贴切地映照出他前一刻的想法.
“这将使我们比其他毒枭更有优势。”
“你估计我们到达佛罗里达、开始我们作为毒枭的新生活大概需要多长时间？”汉尼拔问道。
“几个星期吧，”威尔皱眉，“也许十八天。”如果不是汉尼拔对他们之间的伴侣关系进一步进展所需的花费心怀一些不可动摇的浪漫幻想的话，这时间在海上算不上很长。“我们能更好地利用时间，如果我们在夜间轮班运行引擎的话。”夜里轮班掌舵会让他们更快地到达佛罗伦萨，也减轻了每天早上在汉尼拔身边醒来却遭受性挫折的问题。汉尼拔双眼注视着他、目光扫过他的身体的记忆，和他的凝视灼烧着威尔火热的面庞的方式，像一记叉状闪电般击中了他。他们越早到达佛罗里达，汉尼拔就能越早在床上撒满玫瑰花瓣和鹿角或者其他什么玩意。威尔很想把他们带到北卡罗莱纳州上岸，但即使是佛罗里达也感觉离匡提科太近而令人担忧。他知道他们能够融入那里；在他们前往目的地的两周里，搜捕行动将有充足时间达到狂热巅峰，且逐渐缩小，而人们将会看到他们期望看到的东西；大多数人并不期待着见到一个被通缉的连环杀手登记入住当地酒店，或是买一辆二手车，或是在街角的杂货店买杂货。尽管如此，威尔能够确信的是，如果他们不得不航行到任何远于佛罗里达的地方，他将无法从性张力的陡立之势中存活下来，他还同样确信，一旦他们完全离开这个国家，他将能更轻松地得到休息。
“你一定得教我航海。”汉尼拔说道，若无其事，显然没有意识到他的话使威尔的心脏艰难运转。“如果我们不必经常加油，我们就能节省时间。”
“明天吧。”威尔说道，想着教汉尼拔做任何事的画面，想着汉尼拔请求别人教他。“我们现在都还依旧疲惫着呢。”
“的确如此。”汉尼拔同意道。“而且，为了恢复我们的力量，我提议用咖啡以外的东西来打破我们的斋戒。”
“我吃得下。”威尔耸耸肩，跟着汉尼拔回到甲板下面。“而且我是在开玩笑，”他说，“关于在你的古董镜子上吸食可卡因。你永远不会靠你自己的供给嗑嗨。”
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当他们吃过东西后，海水已经平静下来，风也变得温和而稳定，于是威尔放下船帆，利用傍晚的阳光，向汉尼拔展示了抢风航行的基本技巧。他是个绑绳子的专家，威尔一点也不惊讶。
“别自以为是。”威尔警告道。“我会不警告你就转动吊杆，直接把你撞进海里。”
汉尼拔看上去更像是被逗乐了而不是被威胁。“谁教你航海的？”他问道，眯起眼睛，从他正在拉帆的位置向上望去。夕阳映照在他的眼中，使它们看起来平坦而漆黑。有那么一瞬间，威尔觉得他也能看见自己倒映在那里，笼罩在橘红色的光芒之中。墙上的魔镜，威尔想着，觉得自己很傻，我不总是能够认出你所展现出的我的倒影。
他耸了耸肩。“我就是那么学会了。”他说。
“你年轻时候学会的。”汉尼拔说，“在我认识你的这段时间里，你很少航行，但与海上技能和知识相关联的神经通路依然敏锐而明亮，记忆深深地刻在了你的脑海里。”
“我小时候在船只引擎上工作。”威尔答道。他不是很想谈论他的过去；那感觉像是另一段人生，一些发生在别人身上的事情。一个活过却从未认识汉尼拔·莱克特的人。此刻他感觉到了全新的开始；而回望过去是他最不想做的事情。尤其是这件事。“你像那样整日呆在船上，你也会学到点东西，即使你自己并没有一艘船。”
汉尼拔看他的表情说明他知道还有更多事情有待了解，也知道威尔并不打算告诉他。“你独自驾船到了欧洲。”他说，改变了试探策略。“毫无疑问，这是一次令人望而生畏的航行。寂然，寥寥，全始，全终，独自一人身处广阔无边的大海之上。你有没有担心过自己的安全，当你穿过那片宽广水域之时，威尔？”
“我不在乎。”威尔耸了耸肩，说道。“我不知道你为什么留我活着，也不知道当我找到你的时候会做些什么。在海上失踪几乎可以算是一种解脱了。”
“一个痛苦的灵魂。”汉尼拔说，“可你还是取胜了。我勇敢、耀眼的男孩，你穿过整个大洋只为再次找到我。”他站得离威尔更近了些，举起左手摩挲着贯穿威尔前额的苍白线条。“当你找到我时，我是多么的不知感恩啊。”
太阳在汉尼拔双眼的黑暗镜面中闪着光，威尔想知道他怎么还没因此失明。“现在无所谓了。”他说，声音有些僵硬，虽然他正想要它变得轻快、放松。汉尼拔的手指紧扣住他的肩膀。
“对，”他说，“我想在这一切之后确实无所谓了。”
[1] 标题注，金燕蛾属（Chrysiridia），又称日落蛾（sunset moth）。产于东非至马达加斯加，具有发达的飞行肌肉和强健的身体，在白天飞行。它被认为是最美丽最富感染力的鳞翅目昆虫之一，日落蛾外形非常艳丽，但翅膀的虹彩部分没有色素，这些色彩来自光的干涉。华丽的外表和日飞习性使其常常被误认为蝴蝶。
[2] もりばな，盛花（shèng），其形式是在宽口盘中放置剑山，将花材以繁盛的风格体现出来。
[3] 引自《约翰福音》1:19：“次日，约翰看见耶稣来到他那里，就说，看哪，上帝的羔羊，除去世人罪孽的。”（The next day he saw Jesus coming toward him, and said, “Behold, the Lamb of God, who takes away the sin of the world!”）
Notes:
译者尾注：拔叔是不是不行啊！！！！？
第十六章 豹灯蛾
Summary:
时间在蒙太奇中过得更快。
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
随着威尔引导小船缓缓穿过黑暗，海浪舔舐着船身。海水异乎寻常地平静，在船头处分开如同两片黑色的幕帘，然后荡漾开来，最终归入无形的寂静之中。威尔跟随着水面上映照出的群星之路，向南前行。
“朝地狱与诅咒前行。”贝德莉亚微笑着，因某些几乎无法抑制的情绪而嘴唇紧闭，鼻孔张开。“你父亲过去常用的那个表达是什么来着？‘那就是事情急转直下（turned south）的时候’吗？”她扬起一边金色的眉毛，勉强地自鸣得意着。“在这次旅途的终点，又有什么等待着你呢？”
威尔从保温杯里嘬饮着滚烫的咖啡，凝望着夜空中闪亮的星星，从他面前平静的水面中，有着同样明亮的星星朝他眨着眼。“旅行本身就是终点。”他告诉她。“你没听说过吗？”
“一次自我发现的旅程？抑或是深入黑暗内心？”
“我已经看够了自己黑暗的内心，足以让我了解人类内心的恐惧。”他答道。
“你看透人们的心，”她说，“他们隐藏的所有秘密。你对他们的了解比他们对自己的了解还要多。”
“所以我就可以因此成为一个合格的法官了？”威尔问道。“也许这就是为什么我们合作得这么好的原因——我可以评价，他可以处决。”
贝德莉亚的双眼一直在太过湛蓝与太过宽阔而黑暗之间摇摆不定。他尽力不让它分散他的注意力。“你们两个都是行刑者。”她说，眼窝憎恶地盯着他。“你要去哪里？”
他还不知道。出于某种原因，很难想到远于佛罗里达的地方。太多选项，太多不确定性。他需要先知道，他们两个将会成为什么样子。他们俩在一起会是什么样子。也许他们无需一股联合起来对抗他们的外部力量，就会将他们自身分裂开来。
某个有一间楼上卧室的地方，威尔突然想到，他的脑海中闪现出，当他坐在BSHCI等待着自己的死刑执行日时，他以为已经失去的生活的画面。被温暖微风吹拂着的沙沙作响的白色窗帘。厨房里的蓝色瓷砖。点缀着深红颜色的蓝色瓷砖。
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